~Life~

Saturday, 21 March 2015

It's a long time..

That was such a long time since I last blog..
During this period, so much has changed.
I am officially single now after so long.
Drastic change in my emotions - been in the most down

Thanks to my EQ
Never know that being single is much more happier than a married life
Wouldn't put all blame on him.
Could only blame on myself
For trusting the wrong person
For kept on giving him chances

Being single unofficially for 1.5 years, I thought I will never fall in love again.
In fact I am afraid of falling in love again till I found him..

We have known each other for 6 years but seldom talk to each other
There were on and off texting
Till recently
We are texting day and night
Sharing almost every moments in a day
He told me secretly that he had some good feelings towards me when we were in Sheffield.
But was told that I was engaged in a relationship.
Memory flashed back at that moment as I remembered I have some feelings towards him too when we were in Sheffield.
But only memory I had about him was a group of us was drinking below of his flat the night.

So far I have found him
A very sweet guy
A very considerate guy
A lovely guy
A cute guy
A happy guy

He sings well. First song he sang to me was the chorus part of "Ni zen me she de wo nan guo"
He likes pooh
He likes piano
It seems that we shared common interests.

But honestly I am afraid to be in love and at the same time hope to be loved by someone
In dilemma
Afraid of being hurt
Afraid of the downs
Afraid of losing again
Afraid of "too good to be true"